Lyrics

Pacing aimlessly,
With my mind in unrest
Unsure of what may come.
What have I done to bring this down on me?
Helpless to make this undone

All in due time, see the world through different eyes.
All in due time, the shadows will give way to light.

How much more can I give of myself,
As these walls close in on me?
As I slip down in to this despair
(Into this despair),
There is nothing to attain

What victory
(What victory)
When my soul is weak,
(Is weak)
Where does my help come from?

All in due time, see the world through different eyes.
I see the world through different eyes.
All in due time, shadows will give way, give way to light.

All that we suffer through leads to determination.
The trials we all go through gives us the strength to carry on.
Something within us burns, desire feeds the will to live.
A reason to believe I will see redemption.

All in due time, see the world through different eyes
I see the world through different eyes
All in due time, the shadows will give way to light.
All in due time.

Personal Impact on Me

This song is a song that is resonating with me the most in this season. About a month ago, I started getting anxious. I found myself unable to sit silently (whether I was doing nothing, or some menial task), and had to be immersed in a YouTube podcast, Amazon Prime show, or some other distraction. Knowing my history, I thought this need to distract myself was a coping mechanism; like I was avoiding something in my subconscious that I needed to address.

So, I was standing there ironing and having this conversation with God:

“Why am I so anxious? Why am I trying so persistently to occupy my mind? What are you trying to tell me that I’m drowning out?”

And as I was standing there, listening… I just felt a peace surround me. I felt the Holy Spirit urging me not to worry; I was anxious for what great things He is preparing, not from something that I was hiding.

That revelation brought me peace; knowing that there wasn’t something inside of me that needs to be fixed. My spirit was just groaning and fidgeting in anticipation of what big things God is preparing for me.

And as I was basking in that revelation throughout the week, I had this song, In Due Time by Killswitch Engage, come up in my Spotify shuffle on my drive to work.

I had some Killswitch Engage saved on my Spotify, but I didn’t listen to them all too often. My introduction to the band through Adam Dutkiewicz’s side project (Times of Grace) was more of a mainstay in my listening than the main band because of its more Christ-centered focus. But this song, hit me hard in with what I was going through.

The instrumentals do a fantastic job of laying the groundwork for the shift in mood. From the guitar chugging personifying a draining struggle, to the release into softer guitar in the solo, to the triumphant drumming adding to the rhythm at the end.

Lyrically, the song does the same thing. The dichotomy between the clean and unclean vocals also builds a nice contrast. Between the screamed lyrics showing desperation, to the clean chorus giving reassurance, this song gives a good foil between the opposing voices speaking to us.

From the opening lyrics about the anxious struggle of trying to keep my mind reigned in, this song personifies my frustration well.

Pacing aimlessly,
With my mind in unrest
Unsure of what may come.
What have I done to bring this down on me?
Helpless to make this undone

That’s exactly what I go through when I’m anxious and stressed out. My mind is racing, but I don’t know even know what I’m so consumed by; that uncertainty for my future takes its toll. And despite knowing that everything going wrong is usually my fault, I feel helpless in pulling myself out from where I landed myself.

Another set of verses show how trapped I feel sometimes. Spending every ounce of energy in my body to just stay afloat in moments where everything around me seems to be crashing down.

How much more can I give of myself,
As these walls close in on me?
As I slip down in to this despair
(Into this despair),
There is nothing to attain

But despite all of my emotions weighing down on me, there’s still hope. That’s where the main chorus really encourages me.

All in due time, see the world through different eyes.
All in due time, the shadows will give way to light.

Despite the pain that I might feel in the moment, there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. I just need to focus on that. That brings me back to Philippians 4; a powerful chapter for me. I’m reminded to focus on His promises and what is worthy of praise. Readjusting my optics and focusing on His grace and provision really helps me to find the peace to realign and get back on track.

⁸ Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. ⁹ The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

Philippians 4 : 8-9 NKJV

Going further into the song, these verses give me hope, even in my weakness.

What victory
(What victory)
When my soul is weak,
(Is weak)
where does my help come from?

My weakness just shows His strength through me. If I was strong enough to get through this all on my own, why would I need a savior? It reminds me of the story of Gideon. God showed His might through Gideon, a judge who told the Lord that he wasn’t strong enough. And not only did He work through him, but the Lord told Gideon to cut his numbers over and over again before facing the Midianites, lest the men of Israel think that the won the battle on the merits of their own strength. But through their impossibly meager numbers, God’s strength was shown in the victory.

That story is also summarized very well in 2 Corinthians.

⁹ And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. ¹⁰ Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12 : 9-10 NKJV

That last line in those set of verses comes straight out of Psalm 121, and is so encouraging. It reminds me that His hands are ready to catch me whenever I fall.

1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

Psalm 121 : 1-2

These struggles that I go through may be draining, but remembering that there’s growth past them gives me strength to carry on. These following song verses really remind me of that.

All that we suffer through leads to determination.
The trials we all go through gives us the strength to carry on.

So many great lines to digest! These immediately made me hop to Romans 5 with these verses:

¹ Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, ² through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. ³ And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; ⁴ and perseverance, character; and character, hope. ⁵ Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.

Romans 5 : 1-5 NKJV

Though we are not subjected to trials, tribulations, and pain by our Father in Heaven, he works everything together for our good, and these become opportunities to grow us. James also gives some good insight on this.

² My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, ³ knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. ⁴ But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

James 1 :2-4 NKJV

And the second half of those set of verses also gives me insight on myself and the anxiousness within me.

Something within us burns, desire feeds the will to live.
A reason to believe I will see redemption.

There is something deep within us that is yearning, burning within us to go onward. These verses tie in so well to the Apostle Paul’s words to the Roman church! Firstly, we as His children are groaning expectedly for our redemption in Him. Our spirits long for the day that we are free from our flesh holding us here and can spend eternity with Him, unrestrained by our sinful nature. And just as I long for the ending of my story here on earth and move on to heaven with my Father, I look forward to the types and shadows of His love here on earth; His love, blessings, and joy being manifested now.

¹⁸ For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. ¹⁹ For the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God. ²⁰ For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of Him who subjected it in hope; ²¹ because the creation itself also will be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God. ²² For we know that the whole creation groans and labors with birth pangs together until now. ²³ Not only that, but we also who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, eagerly waiting for the adoption, the redemption of our body. ²⁴ For we were saved in this hope, but hope that is seen is not hope; for why does one still hope for what he sees? ²⁵ But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance.

Romans 8 : 18-25 NKJV

And finishing up that section, these verses tie back an earlier part of the song.

²⁶ Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. ²⁷ Now He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He makes intercession for the saints according to the will of God.
²⁸ And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. ²⁹ For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren. ³⁰ Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.

Romans 8 : 26-30 NKJV

That section of Romans was standing out the most to me with this song. The Holy Spirit intercedes for me, even when I have no idea what I even need to pray about. And despite how it feels in the moment, EVERYTHING works together for my good. And lastly, there’s redemption; not only once I’m done here on earth, but while I’m here as well. This passage really encourages me to keep going.

And tying back to the beginning of my post, God has been confirming that word that He put on my Heart. At a young adults service, we all gathered together to pray for each other in the Spirit and speak what was put on our hearts. And through one of my friend’s friends, He spoke prophetically to me:

Be calm, I am preparing something great for you… and I am not preparing just one thing, but several things are in store for you.

And to top that off, both my friend, Drew, and I both received this word afterwards.

Give praise in the waiting, even if it’s not here yet

So I’m encouraged to keep going, even when my circumstances don’t align with His promises in the moment. He keeps his word, so I’m rejoicing in what’s yet to come.

I’m using this song as an anthem to keep my spirits up. It helps tie in these verses in my head, and I’ll continue to go back to it to remind me of the truth, despite any pain that I am going through. I just have to be sure to not get lost in my endless pacing back and forth for too long.

And to end this post, I’ll leave this

⁹  Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.

Galatians 6 : 9 NASB